my Adek.. she's..d..d..d..

d...d...d....

DEAD!

i was so freaked by that news..

i didn't even thought that i will lose her this soon

we lost it 3 days ago, we thought she's being kidnapped 

but instead, my father's worker, found her dead body in the bushes just right to my house

her head was bit injured..

my family conclude that she's been bite by snake..

if I ever meet that lil asshile snake, i would chop & kill & suffer it!!!

i love her so much!

all of my family members cried so much for her

even my dad

and i was the worst

i cried so hard that my nose went reddish, my eyes were swelling, and i can't stop it!

i played so much with her

my dad, mom, angoh & myself even sleep with her every single day

we have tons pictures & videos of her playing with the cockroaches..

she's being hyperactive kitten

the most hyperactive kitten we've ever met

she had made our house became full of laughs & enjoyment

but now...

i lost her

we lost her

forever

i can't imagine this terrific tragedy fall on us

i never had imagine this before

i never want this to happen to her, me & my family

i DON'T WANT THIS TO HAPPEN

and i'm still blogging with my eyes full of tears

because of her

i can't accept that she's not with us

she will never be with us again

she will neve play with the cockraches again

she will never bite my foot again

she will never sleep with me again

she will never meowing asking for food again

i will never hear her voice again

never

tears, please stop flowing ..

please

i can't bear this tragedy

i still have her photos in my handphone & my house

everytime i look at her pictures, my eyes will be blurred by tears

it's like one of my family members had died

yes, she's part of our family

my family loves her so much!

she brighten our house

when i was feeling dull, she came & brighten my heart

she will disturb me when i was studying

she will sit & sleep on my laps everytime i studied

now, it's all.........

won't be happening again

dear Adek, 

i wish you are in a better place with a better food and by Allah's side..

seems like Allah loves you more

seems like it is a test by Allah for me & my family

and i'm not mad with Allah

not at all

i take this as the fate

this is the circle of the world

everyone day. even us..

when someone died, another one will born

we shouldn't be crying all a long & didn't think about our future

even if we did nothing but cried & cried & cried & cried, they wouldn't be alive again

instead, pray a lot to Allah & asked HIM to recover our sadness..

and i'm getting better now

with the support & jokes made by my family & my buddies

i'm leading to a new step

a new day

days with Adek's not by my side